Turning 39

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One week from today, I will turn 39.  For the past month or so, I have been dreading it.  Simply dreading it.  I don’t know what it is about turning 39.  After all, they say that 40 is the new 30.  I wasn’t quite on board with that philosophy.

There’s something about turning 39 and being single.  I never ever thought I’d be single at my age.  A couple of friends are getting married this summer.  Of course, I am happy for them, but I’m wondering when it’s going to happen for me.  I would love to be a wife and a mom.  However, I am a firm believer that God has a plan for my life, a plan that is far better than anything I could ever dream of.  My favorite verse is Ephesians 3:20 – Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us.

Thinking about my birthday made me think about some things.  I want to live my life to the fullest, having no regrets.  I don’t want to look back on my single days and say, “I wish I had _______.”  I want to live a life of gratitude, not crying in a pity party of one.  So I started thinking, “How can I be grateful for my singleness, instead of wishing for what I don’t have?”  The answer is freedom.  I have the freedom to do what I want, when I want.  I have the freedom to do things I’ve always wanted to do.

I couldn’t get the thought out of my head.  So I brought up the idea to one of my best friends.  She absolutely loved the idea and helped me come up with my freedom list, things I want to do while I’m single.  Now I’ve had many amazing experiences in my life, from climbing the Great Wall of China to skydiving in New Zealand to rocking orphans to sleep in Romania.  However, I’ve overlooked some of the “small stuff”.

In the beginning, I was just thinking of creating a small list of maybe 10 things.  However, remember my favorite verse?  God doesn’t do small.  I had a feeling God wanted this to be bigger than I had originally thought.  So…since I’m turning 39, I created My Freedom List to have 39 adventures, things I’ve wanted to do but have never done.  We all have things that we’ve wanted to do but have never done. We tell ourselves, “I’ll do it next week.”  Then when next week comes, we never get around to it.  So no more procrastinating for me. I have 39 things on my list, and I will have exactly one year to complete them, all while I’m 39.

Tune in next time to read My Freedom List!